I know how important is to forgive people, who have hurt us. I've also read a book about Radical Forgiveness. I understand the meaning of it. But what if somebody hurts me all the time, and does things, ONLY TO HURT ME ? It's the one I love... and he does all the things just to make himself feel better, to see if I'll be jealous.
Now, I don't really know, what is the truth, and what is a lie. One day he says he loves me, and the other day, he flirts with other girl. When I asked him, almost begged him just to be honest with me, and if he fell in love with another girl, or just doesn't love me anymore, to tell me this. And I will respect his decision, and respect him. He said : "ok, I promise, I'll never lie again", and the other day the same situation.
Last time I just got so nervous, that I told him that I don't want to know him anymore, that it's definetely over.
We've been for about two years together, but he's changed lately, and he's not the man, I fell in love with.
I don't know if I want him back, but the hardest thing for me, is that he still keeps hurting me. So should I still keep forgiving him in my mind ? How am I to this, knowing that he doesn't stop his game ?