I am my own worst enemy!

[Beanboo]

I've been on a pretty good manifesting streak lately. I get any and every thing I ask for. The problem is ME! I expect my outcome but then I change my mind.  I am a temp worker. I work for 3 months at a time and then I move to a different company. Every once in a while my contract is extended, but for the most part, midway through my third month, I start job hunting again. (And for the record, I'm not looking for a full time, permanent job. This is my career). Anyway right now I'm in LA and I really like it here, so about 2 weeks ago,  I asked for my next job to be in Southern California, close to the beach with a specific pay rate, plus some other small details about the job role itself. But for some stupid reason, right after I put that intention out there, I applied for a job in San Francisco and I immediately got the contract. Well now my DREAM job for a company that I've been coveting for a while opened up. It happens to be in Southern California, two blocks from the beach for around the same pay I wanted, but  I can't take it because I'm locked into my San Francisco job. I'm so mad at myself! It's like I know the process and trust the process but I self sabotage. I don't know how to dig myself out of this funk now. I guess I'm just venting because it's not like I don't know the solution to my problem.