Im burning with passion. I HAVE DECIDED.

[Princess7]

I am going to attract a harem of 10 HOT ATTRACTIVE boys...WHO TOTALLY WANT ME AND TREASURE ME.

Why attract one who is perfect for me? It could get boring and feel like its to easy.

I was always stopped attracting the guys I wanted.
Because I didnt feel pretty enough.
And I felt like I didnt diserve someone beautiful.
That it was bad for me to be shallow.
And that I couldnt have the one thing I really wanted, just because its shallow.

You know what? I decided to kick myself and I realised... ITS A TEST.
I was wrong from the beginning thinking I should give up because its shallow.
I realised its a TEST... how could this be a test?
Well... think about it... every time I wanted to attract it my insecurity, low selfesteem and guilth stopped me. ITS A TEST TO OVERCOME MY LOW SELFESTEEM... NOT MY SHALLOWNESS.

does this make sense to anyone?

[modesttreasure]

:) . It makes sense to me. Go out there and attract your harem! However, I'd start off with a smaller number myself b/c balancing 10 guys sounds tricky.

[Princess7]

hehehe I know.

It just all makes sense.
Like I am being "forced" go grow selfesteem... to let go of guilt feelings.
I was focusing on becoming a "good person" so much that my guilt started to control me.

Besides I was inspired by this video game of alice in wonderland were the world is filled with pretty boys and you can decide with wich one you end up with. they said "everyone in this world can will in love with you." ( and alice also denied it and didnt feel good enough. ) maybe the law attracted me to this game because its a sign? I HOPE SO.

[Giovani]

You could simply decide that it's easy to balance plenty of guys!

I don't remember you suggesting you were doing this behind anybody's back. This being tricky needn't be part of your karma, at all.

[Emer]

I like it!

I actually decided a couple of weeks back, in a half assed tongue-in-cheek way, that I would like 2 guys to turn up. My thinking was kind of the same as yours "ok, so this last guy didn't work out; so what? I can bring myself TWO guys next time". And they kind of have turned up, but I guess I should have specified what I wanted then to actually do.... D'oh!
So I advise you to figure out what you want from these 10 guys before they all start turning up and you don't know what to do with em all!!!!! x

[Princess7]

... that could have been my problem too...
( or rather... I KNEW what I wanted them to do but my selfesteem said "no way". )
but lately my selfesteem grow and more and more I feel like "I can have ANYTHING... uglyness is just an illusion. my soul can attract everything it wants." )

^^ I need to practise drawing, it helps alot drawing my wishes.

[Giovani]

Hi, Princess!

You said something I won't go too deeply into, about "ugliness being an illusion." This is definitely the case (I mean, common sense makes that obvious. But, we're not rational beings, of course).

The reason I bring this up is because I had a wonderful friend I lost track of who was--by society's cliche definition, far from attractive. There was something stern about her face. She was definitely obese. And, she didn't know the slightest thing about fashion.

However, she had at least a dozen boyfriends, with more lining-up all the time. And, she demanded very strange things from them--love, interestingly, not being one of them. She definitely insisted upon friendship. And, she definitely insisted on sex (her own, rather odd view of it, to be precise in my vagueness).

All her boyfriends I met were marvelous gentlemen. She also liked women. And, all the women were perfect ladies (though, one was very shy--even a bit paranoid. Yet, she loved throwing ever exclusive parties!???).

My friend was a very smart woman. She wrote mysteries, tested board games to make sure they worked correctly (I think she had a degree in mathematics, or something). And, she also did phone sex for a living! She thought it was a hoot! This was a woman who really enjoyed her life and didn't care what anybody thought about any of her choices.

I was lucky to have known her.

Sunshine & Blessings,
Giovani

[athena]

I think (personally) (and sorry guys!) go for it but try to attract guys that are happy to share you and also adore you!

[Emer]

Indeed. Em, how exactly?????

[Star]

lol Im gunna do it too! Just because I can! lol
I'm gunna attract 10 guys who ask me to go on a date with me by December lol
Il come back here and keep u updated.
Let us know when u attract guy number 1 :P

[Emer]

Girls, what are we going to do with all these men????

[Charlie]

I can think of a thing or two ;)

[modesttreasure]

If they're not Larry the Cable Guy, send them to the South ;) . C/O (care of) Modest Treasure. Or, maybe you girls can create another "It's Raining Men" music video :D.