I have written so much about transitioning over the years. I have had this beautiful view of what it is and how un scary it is and natural and it was all so believable in my mind and in my heart. Like I know this is natural and beautiful and nothing to fear and yet now that it is happening i am reminded of how final death is. I am scared to death of the moment I realize he has gone. My best friend, my husband for 30 years, the father of our beautiful children. Its unbearable. I apologize for all the cheery inspiring BS i ever posted here lol.
No i dont mean that. I just feel so powerless and so afraid that i wont be the pillar of strength my kids need me to be. I am terrified of not finding the words. I need to get back to a place of feeling positive and accepting his transition guys. I am running on fear right now. I could really use a hug and some reassurance.
Most of all im afraid for Mike. That he will feel alone in his journey or unloved or any discomfort at all. I want to save him still from his pain. He deserves peace. Thank you everyone for being here for us.
Big love & comfort to you and keep an eye on here and facebook, people are gonna be contacting you.
Hugs hugs hugs
ALL my love and a BIG TIGHT LONG hug my friend. I have no doubt that he’s at peace. Definitely not alone or scared or unloved. He sees everything clearly and sees you and feels your love and is smiling down at you and your beautiful children. Tonight my prayers are for you and Mike and your lovely family. I’m going to forget the hurt and humiliation and fear and depression I am feeling and ONLY think of you and Mike and pray with all my heart for you guys.
LOVE and HUGS
River, Im sending you the biggest hug. (non germy of course) lol I saw this message late into the night or early morning when i couldnt sleep and it made me feel so comforted. Thank you. I am focusing on putting this all behind me. I have been grieving over a year and it is time to be happy. Here i go....
Thank you so much. I’m so glad to hear you say that. You deserve nothing but happiness and peace and joy. We all do. Much love and hugs
Maybe the beautiful words in this caption can give you even more clarity & relief:
Feel the presence of your husband right here right now, this caption:
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Thank you, Dorothy for those beautiful images. They are simply beautiful and so meaningful. Each one of them!
Irfan, You may recall Mike was diagnosed in 2009 and so it has been a rough journey for him. Only in the past year and a half did it become all consuming of our lives. My body is relieved to not have the physical exertion of the daily activities and so i am now caring for me. I am exercising, meditating, eating wonderful meals and journaling and just taking care of me. It is time for me to be happy.
A huge hug to you, sweetheart. I know you'll be ok. I know he is ok. I also know you did well.
You are one of the biggests hearts I have ever known in my whole life! This will be your healing, all the love you have in yourself.
I have so much to say, but I can't put it in words. I wish you the best. Lots of love, honey.